Good morning everyone. I was recently looking on the NAMSHA website for any live model horse shows that was close to me. Well, where I live, Live shows are hours away - I have yet to see one in Amarillo. Anyway, The closest shows here in Texas was in Magnolia. A small town just North West of Houston. For me to go there, I would be driving for 8 hours and when I mentioned that to Daniel, I seen the look on his face. Last year when I traveled to Colorado for a show, it took me 8 hours to get there. Well the reason is cause the speed limit was 55 and me being a law abiding person, yea I went that speed. Daniel don't understand that either. So he got mad about it and set the rule that from now on, I am only to go to shows that are 4 hours away. So that means, no going to shows in Colorado, Kansas, Oklahoma and New Mexico(when and if there is any held there). I asked him about any shows that might be held in the Dallas/Ft. Worth area............BIG MISTAKE!!! He went ballistic over that. He don't want me anywhere near there cause of the (as he puts it)"High accident rate". Uhmmm I am a damn good driver and watch all around me. The answer is and will always be "NO". So my only venue for any live shows would be: Amarillo, Lubbock and Wichita Falls.
Jessica Geer normally holds one in September in Wichita Falls, but she has been going through financial problems, so I came to terms with that quite easily. But for Amarillo and Lubbock? Yea, right. Heck, when NAN was held here in Texas a few years back, I couldn't go. Why? Cause it was located on the east side of Dallas. Thus meaning I would have to drive THROUGH Dallas to get there. I personally feel that Daniel is smothering me so much, that it hurts him to even think of me driving to the store. And that is only 8 miles away. He is constantly telling me to "Watch out for the other drivers" Like no duh, I do. Plus he is afraid that something will happen to me(accident wise). I am a better driver than that, but he don't see it that way.
Plus he says that my hobby takes to much of my time. Like what am I going to do for 8 to 12 hours of the day while he is at work? Sit on my thumbs and act dumb? He is wanting me to be just like his mother(no disrespect to her), but I am NOT the type that will stay at home 365 days and do NOTHING. I like to go to shows, mingle with friends and talk about horses. Is there a problem there? I don't see one, but he does.
I know a lot of people have told me to leave him and stuff like that, but I can't. I love him to much for that. I just want some freedom to go to model horse shows at least 3 x's a year.(2 shows. NAN)
Plus I was asking around about having a fellow hobbiest who is going to NAN this year if they could proxy about 4 of my horses.........................nope, no one is willing. But yet, when another person asks, they are like "Sure, I will proxy for ya"
I guess it is time to just step back from the hobby and seek other venues for a hobby.
Another note, I know for a proven fact that Scarlett Wilde is still up to her tricks. I lost 3 customers in 1 week about a month ago. They wanted one of my presentation sets then about 5 or 6 hours later, they back out cause they "Heard" that my work was shitty. They wouldn't tell me who told them lies, but I knew right off who it was. Karma is going to be a bitch on her when this is all done with.
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Honestly, just based on this post and the one before, I feel rather concerned for you. Granted this is just a tiny view of your relationship, but the angry outbursts, arbitrary rules to keep you home, disliking your having outside interests (and friends?), it paints a rather dark picture.
ReplyDeleteHave you considered talking to anyone? You know what's best for your life, but don't allow yourself to be cut off and isolated.
I hope you find some smoother going soon and something fun to get out and do.